"In the end, it doesn’t matter how well we have performed or what we have accomplished. A life without heart is not worth living, for out of the wellspring of our soul flows all caring, all meaningful work, all real worship and all sacrifice. It is in our heart that we first hear the voice of God and learn to live his love. To lose heart is to lose everything so above all things, guard your heart for it is the wellspring of life itself."

TRAPPED BETWEEN GRAY AND A RAY OF RED PLASTIC ICONIC PLATES

Getting more and more confused. As I get older, I seem to get more and more confused. Things were much more clearer back then.

As a kid I knew where I was going, I'm totally lost! More vulnerable now than back then... [ Argh, can't stand the feeling]

It's been two weeks, and things can be better, I've learned a valuable lesson this week, always follow up with the promises I make to myself [ Thanks to Carlo Rufino - hey Paul Smith Guy, give me some discounts!]. For some reason whenever I don't, life tells me it was wrong and it punishes me for lying to myself and not following what I really want. Don't let other things side track you from doing what you want. Right now, I just have to make the best of it and remember the reason I am doing right now - the end result will be very rewarding.

Well, It is about half way over, and I've been up and down. Overall I have to say the experience is good for me, as are vegetables are good for me though I may not like it sometimes .

Sometimes people can't stand me. How I see others, I see the good except when they're being negative, but for the most part I'd like to believe I am open enough to accept all the personalities I encounter. I do hate negative people but only when they are being negative. Some people here just dismiss others because of personality differences, or don't have enough in common...Grow the FUCK UP......................

Been up for 48 hours, still thinking of brightly colored flip flops and marbles...missing those days when paper planes and paper boats were still all over me - sunshine path, GONE!
Ramon sings Mr. Blue bird at 2, prays and thanks God for everything smiles, winks - farts!

MY LIST!

Onion rings from brothers burger, They're the best in town! Chuck Taylor - vintage and hip, pure classic, white crisp dress shirt, can pair them up with anything Tiangge! Greenhills, Ukay-Ukay, Thrift shops along evangelista, Altered jeans from manong Apron near Rockwell hahaha, I finally found my suki! Tyler - need I say more? Hanes for my plain tees, Addidas vintage sneaks, running shorts – speedo, seven for my brightly colored cardigans, Linea tan shoes hahaha - got it on sale! smart buy, nunn and roti from breadtalk and swagat , Coffee bean – they’ve got the best barristas hahahaha, just wanna hug you all.... lalala at Jen, Gino, Monica, Cheska, Phil, Mickey, Havaianas.... my all around flipos, Lacoste plain bright tops ,loalde....fave since high school ,jeans from old navy, gap, gas and banana republic ,Cibo - yum yum, Brazil Brazil - wanna get fat? haha yum...., Pastor Joey, thanks for inspiring me to be a better person My Thursday group- you guys are the best, learned a lot from all of you, Carlo Rufino - Figaro 1 to 1 hahaha, pizza and coffee....hey, 12 chapters more haha, GOD - hugs yah tight!

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September 4, 2004

Today a friend and I shot the shit about being a single guy in the city. I have many fabulous single girl and guy friends. The big question is why are we all single? So, my friend had asked another one of our friends, Dustin, if he had any opinions on why this is the case. He felt that many guys out there are looking for a girl that is needy and dependent. It boils down to insecurity and having a needy girlfriend means never having to worry that they won't call, not make their guy dinner or just be around to cater to their every need. Basically one of the characteristics of many of my friends that I love may be backfiring in the love department: we are all pretty independent. We all have opinions and like to do things on our own. Sure, we can be nurturing and loving, etc. but not to the point that we turn into mommies and daddies for whatever guy / girl we might be interested in. The trick, Dustin told us, is to find that guy / girl that likes the way that we already are, that likes that we may not call everyday and make other plans rather than worry about spending every waking moment with our boyfriend/ girlfriends. So, really this new insight provided by good ol' Dustin is inspiring and sad. Sad because this means that maybe these special guys / girls that would like independent women man are in the minority and inspiring because there is the possibility that we don't have to change to come across those select few. It doesn't make me sad though, because quite honestly, I am happy being single.[ unless..] I like that I can set my own schedule and do everything for myself and I think that a lot of my girl friends feel the same way. However, I am human and do feel lonely on rare occasions, but only briefly and then I snap out of it! Sure it would be nice to be seeing someone, but I won't compromise my interests and character to just date anyone. It's nice to know that many of my friends are in the same boat and that if a girl has a problem with that, then they aren't worth the effort anyway.

Tuesday is one of those mysterious days without real purpose.

Monday is well, Monday and Wednesday is the middle of the week.

Thursday is the last hard working day of the week because Friday is when you let loose and relax a little at work.

Saturday is when you get chores done and finally have enough energy to go out and enjoy yourself, while Sunday is the your last day to slack off and think about how much you are not looking forward to getting back to work on Monday…..well, not for me!